A bet...

Since I' cna't upload from my other blog I'm putting this up here...
The bet between my friend and I is this...
I think the poem is Shit. My friend thinks otherwise...
Let's see what you guys think...


Don't waste you time thinking,
Thinking of what I'll say,
What I'll do or what I'll be,
And not of if I'll stay.

Think not of what has happened,
Or will happen, or is now.
Think not of 'Ifs' and 'Maybes'
Think instead of how.

Do spend you time in doing,
In feeling, in living,
Do spend it being honest,
And caring, and giving.

Do spend your time alone sometimes,
Just sit sometimes, just breathe and wait,
Don't concern yourself with people then,
Of where to be, and if you're late.

And lastly all I'd like to say,
I'd like to shout, I'd like to scream,
Is as you look at things around,
Remember, they're not what they seem.


PS: Make me win. Be Honest. Say It! It's SHIT!

A bet...

All kinds of random shit..

In honesty, sometimes things just don't seem to move in any particular direction...
And when they actually do after that long dry spell one can't help but feel ecstatic...
I'm feeling real ecstatic right now...
Because things are really working out here and there...
Touch wood though...
Don't want things fucking up...
Anyway...
Oh yeah!
Goa was nice.
Real nice. Met some nice people there. People I hope to meet again.
Heard a lot of music that I felt was real real nice...
Also, a lot of things have been running through my mind. Regarding a lot of different things...
But then that's stuff for me to sort out all by myself. Just how I like it. :)

Death Cab For Cutie Playing on my music system.
Real nice stuff I must say...
Lately they've been playing a lot in my room...
Mainly because I'm somewhat in Awe at how they pull it all together and manage to make just so much sense...

My parents have been at me too...
Oh God! It gets tough some times... But it's all good.
I closed myself down just in time to not be damaged by what they have to say. I respect them, I love them. They're my parents. But some of our views just don't match. Cant do much about the now can I?
Ah well... And lif egoes on.

Creatively I've been feeling really really bummed out...
Don't feel like writing on any one topic in particular.
Lot's of ideas forming in my mind but none of them seem strong enough to come out and amount to something. I can't even spend too much time on any of them because of the amount of stuff I seem to be up to all at the same time. Is it too much for me to do?
I think not! :)

Other than that, I feel like writing a lot more... So I guess I will...

People have proven to be quite the pickle for me...
They're a real pain I tell you. Sometimes, just sometimes I feel like just mentally leaving because of how people are.
I don't like them much you know...
In face, it would be safe to say that I'm only here because some of 'em are just so darn lovable!
That and the music.

Tried a little fish food in Goa by the way...
Real nice tasting stuff man. I quite like fish! :)
But I'm not to have too much. Parents say no. And I shall listen to 'em for the most part.

What else what else what else...
Oh yeah!

Death Cab is playing!

They have this one song, called I Will Posses Your Heart.
Man! It's like a 6 Minute instrumental followed by the actual song. Amazing stuff. I really really like it.

In fact right now I'm enjoying typoing too. The whole experience of my fingers knowing exactly where each key is if just so nice. In fact, I feel that the entire feeling of just knowing... It feels amazing. Not knowing is basically being in the dark for me. And That's a really scary thing. Something I'm not a big fan of the be honest.
Ah well...

I think I've said enough for now...
Wow...
How did I ever almost get published?
I write real bullshit you know!
Haha!
Yeah!
I like this shit!


Life's All Good 'n' Shit,
Mehta!

A picture in my mind

It's an eye. And the sun shines into it just beautifully. And I'm so close to it. ANd it's just one of the most beautiful sights I've ever seen in my life. And I'm afraid I'll forget it. So It's here. And a few other places so that I don't forget. And even if I do, I am reminded.
There's a picture in my mind you know. One of the most beautiful pictures I've ever seen. And one day I'll be able to put it on paper. I will!

Clutching Paper.

Boats with sails in the distance. And I keep hearing piano playing. Maybe it's my earphones. Yes. It's my earphones.

The water seems all bluish green. Not one of the usual shades. At least I haven't seen it much. My memory flashes a rainy pre-afternoon when the sea seemed grey. And Meet and I stood watching in silence. The tetrapods below seem smaller than usual.

The wind blows at me and says hello as the Beatles play something I don't want to listen to. Cause it reminds me of how I don't cut it. How I fail. I won't change it though. I'd rather just sit here and feel bad about what happened.

The Fray cheer me up though. Feels like a little bit of the load on my shoulders has been lifted off. Oh wait.. Nono. It's off.:) I'm not really smiling though.

A crow finds some food and brings it to the parapet to eat. Another crow tries to gt it hands, (or should I say claws) on it. And while they fight a Kite takes it away... Ha! Feels familiar Nai?

Two girls come sit on the parapet to my left. I can't look in that direction now., They'll think I'm staring at them. Nut I'm not. Only one person I like looking at. Ah well...

Some villagers pass me by. so excited. Funny.

Hmmm... Not many waves today. My mind goes back to those morning walks. I see Meet and I and the others looking at the waves oh so silently. A true Comfortable Silence.

Have you ever notices how crows fly here? Battling the winds. The same ones that oh so nicely say hello to me every now and then.

I wonder where that Girl got that glass from. And how far the pier that was once here stretched out. And why some of the stones are red... Maybe the light. Maybe the colour from stuff people keep throwing in the sea.

People that come here in twos or more seem so happy. Yeah. They're happy. And for the moment they smile. And I smile.

And It's all good again.

I hope.

But I smile anyway.

I tried to tear a page out today. I don't know why. But it's a little crumbled now. And I just clutched on to the corner. And then just let it go. I'm sorry for that. Very Sorry. Mainly to myself. And My Book. It will not happen Again. I promise.

Long time no see/Time, time time...

Came back to Bombay via Car from Umargaon or Umadgaon (depending on whether you take the spelling on the station or the highway respectively). I was just telling the Guys, (Farrhad, Krish, Aum Bhai) that as soon as I get back it'll be back to work. No time to rest. Entering the city is gonna mean being busy again.

See I was on vacation for a good 7 days. Was at the family farm house. A place we're blessed to have. From the 17th to the 24th I had a very nice and well deserved "Forced-Vacation" as I like to call it. :) Forced because EVERYONE made me take it.
Thank God they did though! :) Moving on...

So we're on our way back and as soon as we cross the Toll booth that officially signifies you entering the city I start getting calls. About 5 calls. All work related! Crazy! 24th onwards it's been nothing but work. Last two days have been extremely hectic and my schedule till the 9th is filling up VERY fast! If anyone had some work or just wanted to meet just lemme know as soon as possible. So I can fit you in. I was hoping to go meet some relatives in north Mumbai but I doubt I'll be able to pull it off. I'm taking part in three Performing Arts events and (hopefully) about four Literary Arts Events for a Festival in Goa that's being hosted by B.I.T.S Pilani. Woohoo? Not really. But I love working! And This is a good platform and what not! XD

I was just hoping to meet some people. Rather EVERYONE I haven't met in some time. So I'm just hoping to see you guys soon. Mind giving me a call? We'll fix something up! :)

In other news, I know I've been very cranky and have been screaming some. Apologies for that. Days are extremely hectic and my body isn't helping the situation.

Anyway...
That's about it for now. I'll put up pictures form the trip (Yes, there are SOME pics of me two for a change. :) ) soon.

Take good care now!

Swaying silently into the night,
-Mehta.

A Movie Script Ending....

I guess I just end up writing about music no matter what... :D
Feels so damn good! XD

A Movie Script Ending by Death Cab For Cutie is a song I love for a number of reasons.

Firstly, it has a truly wonderful video!



Fantastic! I can't get enough of it! The style in which it's been done is, in the words of Krish, Fabulous! The actress gives off the feel of someone that I can relate to very very easily. She knows who she is, don't you? :P
It portrays a certain kind of relationship. One that well... Enough said...

The song itself has a Chorus to die for! I can't get enough of it! I keep singing it man! The melody is quite wonderful. And when they go back to the chorus after the breakdown, Ah! With the build up on the snare and floor tom! Beautiful! Though the breakdown itself does tend to be a little too weird on first listen of the song.

Lyrics. I've always loved Death Cab's lyrics. And this song is a perfect example of why. (Lyrics At: http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/deathcabforcutie/amoviescriptending.html)

"With your hand on my shoulders, a meaningless movement... a moviescript ending, "

Ha! I don't know about you. But I relate to this somehow. Even though it has nothing to do with my life in particular. A meaningless movement. A movie script ending. Those little seemingly meaningless things that in all actuality mean so very much. So very very much... :)


*Sigh*
Music. :) Lovely Lovely Music.